Created by the system

 Puzzle

 Abyss

 Lost in the dark box

 

 Lost at Sea, Hidden 

Some times I just want to know who will be out today

Who is this I wonder?? By Raymond system

I Think this is St. Joesph  By Raymond system

D.I.D. The Raymond System

Daddy dies- I lost

For the first time in my life my biological father wants to truly get to know me he asks for forgiveness he move close to me. I share my story of the abuse in my home as a child to man who was never there, never knew and did not know about my DID. We build a friendship. We begin to share holidays we begin to tell our life stories and  I think I finally got my dad. after months of talking after months of planing he moves less then 10 min from me. we begin to unpack his things,while laugh joking and thinking of the future and the things we are gonna do. One whole week that's what I got one whole week with my dad.... Then he dies. How come I keep losing. It was not enough I yell... I wanted more time.... I wanted more holidays and birthdays. I wanted to go to spend Sunday morning having breakfast together. taken walks in the park, listen to music..... My real dad the man I never knew in the few months I did have him he showed love, compassion, understanding and friendship and now he is gone and I'm like this is Bullshit!!! this is not Fair......


I yell, I scream, I cry
I lost.
 I lost my dad to drugs and gangs when I was 1
I lost my innocents when I was2
I lost my cats when I am4
I watch death come knocking at my door at 7
I lost , I lost
I lost my home before I was born
I lost my dog before he was old
I lost  I lost
I watched  brother get sick
I watched my mother take a fist
I lost I lost
I lost dolls and my toys
I lost my friends
I lost my love
I got lost in the woods
I got lost where I stood
Lost lost I say
I lost my step dad before I was 12
I lost I lost
I lost my new home at 17
I lost I lost
I found my dad
I found some hope
for he stop taken that dope
but then I lost my dad
to cancer
I lost I lost
I lost my daddy
this is true



When will this stop how much more lost must I have?