Facts DID TW

Dissociative Identity Disorder Fact Sheet  BIG TW
Formerly called Multiple Personality Disorder
Given a diagnostic category in the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM) in 1980.
Characterized by the existence of two or more distinct personality states that have the capacity to take control of the body and the inability to recall personal information too great to be explained by ordinary forgetfulness. The condition cannot be due to the effect of substances or a medical condition.
There may be accompanying symptoms such as depression, anxiety, obsessive/compulsive behavior, eating disorders, substance abuse, etc.
Arises from continued and repeated sexual and/or physical abuse beginning in early childhood.

DID is a defensive mechanism that protects the child from the physical and emotional pain associated with abuse by separating a part of the child’s mind or consciousness to deal with the trauma of the abuse. Over time and repeated abuse, these separate parts establish identities of their own.
People with DID have been shown to be highly susceptible to dissociation (an alteration in consciousness wherein the individual and some aspect of his or her self or environment become disconnected or disengaged from one another), of above average intelligence, and highly creative. DID is generally diagnosed in adulthood, triggered by some factor that compels or allows the alters to emerge.
Systems of alter personalities differ from individual to individual, but there are generally host personalities who appear most often, opposite gender personalities, self-helper personalities, persecutory personalities who may harm themselves or others, and child personalities.
Switching is the process of shifting from one alter to another.
Co-consciousness refers to the level of shared awareness of existence and behavior between the host personality and the alters. Levels of co-consciousness vary from person to person from total lack of knowledge of others in the system to complete co-consciousness where every alter knows to some degree what each alter and the host personality are doing or thinking.
The object of therapy is to stabilize the person, lessen the degree of dissociation, increase cooperation and co-consciousness within the system, and often ultimately merge the alters into one personality, a process called integration.
Although no controlled study has been conducted in the United States, an estimate of the prevalence of DID in the U.S. population is from 1 in 500 to 1 in 5,000, or between 250,000 and 2,500,000 people.
Four times as many women are diagnosed as men.
The average person diagnosed with DID spends 7 years in the mental health system before being properly diagnosed, due to misdiagnosis and lack of training on the part of therapists to spot the disorder.
Two non-profit groups based in the United States that disseminate information on The Dissociative Disorders are:
http://www.m-a-h.net/article-facts.htm

People Have Body Memories
Have you ever hit your thumb with a hammer? Has the memory of that ever caused you to clench your fist? Have you ever been made sick by eating food, and years later felt physically sick when you saw or remembered that food? Have you ever felt your stomach tighten up like a ball of knots when conflict was imminent? Have you ever felt your face muscles tighten and eyes squint when someone made you mad?
Emotions Are Evident In The Body
Has the hair on the back of your neck ever stood up when you were afraid? Has your face ever blushed when you were ashamed? Have you ever felt sick to your stomach when you received bad news?
The Anniversary of Big Events Triggers Emotions
Have you ever felt grief when you remembered the death of a loved one, or glad when you remembered your wedding day? Have you known people who experience grief every year during their birthday, wedding anniversary, or death day of a spouse?
Objects Related To Big Events Trigger Emotions
Have you ever saw an old car like the first one you drove, and smiled when you remembered your first date in that car with your wife to be? Have you ever looked at your child's baby slipper and remembered the doctor, the room, the nurse, the pain, and the joy of her birth? Have you ever disliked someone on first sight because they remind you of someone else? Have you ever known anyone who removed from sight all pictures of a dead loved one?
Emotional Catharsis Helps People Heal
Have you ever felt a great load lifted from your shoulders when you confessed a sin, or talked to a loved one about something that had upset you, and then slept like a baby for the first time in years? Have you noticed that those who weep and grieve at the death of a loved one, are often better able to carry on with life than those who hold back their tears? Have you ever felt your face muscles tighten when someone made you angry, and felt them release after you settled your disagreement?

The boys

            Trigger

             I was saying good bye too two adorable boys that I have had been blessed to care for over a year. Looking at them I would miss them so much, it will be time for them to go back to there mother, a mother who had an addiction to drugs, a mother who got a second chance, And me well I have no children, do I want children? Oh Yes with all my heart, but in that moment those boys where my children.

            There mother picked them up, put them in the car and I said goodbye, but what I really saw was a women walking around drunk stumbling over her feet trying to get the next drink.

             I realized I will not be able to protect them; I will not be able to get them away from a mother who in my mind did drugs and will always do drugs….

As I wave good bye, I go inside where I sit alone and then the memory hits like a bucket of cold ice.

             Seeing lots of people in the room, people that where so out of it, it was ridicules So much yelling and so much screaming so much fighting.  Two men drunk fighting wanting to kill one another became my surroundings.  I was on the women’s bed sitting beside me a boy with tears rolling down his face, but I was watching all of this. An ax falls and blood is all around the moment that the blood hit my face the boy stops crying or was it me that was crying? I am not sure. I just sat as these two men tried killing one another all because of drugs.

             My body falls backwards looking at the ceiling but then I was sitting next to me.  I knew I was lying on the bed but I was also sitting beside me?

            I always felt my self not in my body, lost always lost that’s what I always felt. In the dark but knew no one could see the darkness I was in.

Sharing this memory I realized I was sitting for several hours. Sitting looking at the past oh well I must carry on. The most amazing creatures on earth two boys now where gone and I felt nothing, it was like it did not happen, it was like watching the boys, was a movie that played out and in the end there mother got them back.. And I just got up and that other part, the part that is always so close but so far was beside me getting ready to live a life that had no feelings, and no joy.