I am blogging about my DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder) Because it is a way for me to share, my hurts, hangups, and my habits without feeling judged by others. I was never able to tell others about my abuse now I have the courage to do so.
I blog to help others that may be experiencing something similar. I want to be able to tell someone, "hey I understand", "I get it", "I was there or yes I am still struggling with that". I do not want to make myself look like I am healed and my DID is not a problem for me, that would be a lie.
I believe my DID helped me to survive in a world of darkness and cruelty does it make it easy to live with? No not at all. At times I want to scream "WHY ME"? and other times when I am stressed or I can not handle a situation it is very helpful.
I also blog for my Individuals, it is a way for them to have a voice, something they never could have. I could not give them that voice as a child, now I can say share all you want. Write it down, scream about it hit, or break something (within reason of course) any thing to help you get it out. Blogging works for them to.
I also can see progress from blogging from when I started until now. It has been a hard journey and a lot more is to come. The pain is at times so unbearable I just want to die, but I know I am so strong and I have such great support. My Boyfriend, My Sponsor, My therapist, My friends, and My FB friends and my blog and most important My God because of them I'm getting what I need to help me stay strong when I feel so weak.
Blogging for me is my journal, when I feel no one hears, no one cares, no one sees my pain putting it down helps me be strong in my day.
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