Depression

Depression what is looks like to me

Depression is a state of low mood and aversion to activity that can affect a person's thoughts, behavior, feelings and physical well-being.^[1] Depressed people may feel sad, anxious, empty, hopeless, worried, helpless, worthless, guilty, irritable, or restless. They may lose interest in activities that once were pleasurable; experience loss of appetite or overeating, have problems concentrating, remembering details, or making decisions; and may contemplate or attempt suicide. Insomnia, excessive sleeping, fatigue, loss of energy, or aches, pains or digestive problems that are resistant to treatment may be present.^[2] Depressed mood is not necessarily a psychiatric disorder. It is a normal reaction to certain life events, a symptom of some medical conditions, and a side effect of some medical treatments. Depressed mood is also a primary or associated feature of certain psychiatric syndromes such as clinical depression.

Will I ever break these chains of despair, will I ever be carefree once again? I feel so lost, I feel so alone. How sad when I have so many who care. But I just think they be better off with out me. Will I ever break these chains of despair? Will life having meaning for hopeless is what I feel.

It is a cycle that never ends. I just want to hurt,I just wan to scream, I just want this to end. I know death could be so sweet for evil and ugliness is me.  I hide behind a dark curtain so no one would see the disappointment and the truth of what I am. Evil inside, Evil you can not hide, Evil is I. Why don't you see the truth of the ugly stupid, no good, discussting person that I am . Alone is best for me for no one can love such a person as me.  By Hopeless     



Do you see what I look like? Do you see the evil inside. Let me just cut, scream and fight but I will never cry. By Hopeless

I'm not to speak of Evil, I'm not to say the truth, but the truth is what is evil, the truth is what is never told. I seek understanding in this world of cold, a world that is nothing. A world that makes me want to be lost in the Abyss where I should be, where Evil lives within. I'm not to speak of Evil, but how can I not when Evil is what I am, Evil is what I live. Evil is with in. I cant seem to cry, I cant seem to feel the pain inside. Cutting would be nice, cutting would make me feel what I cannot feel inside. Cutting how I long must I wait. A contract was made the Evil must write, the Evil can't hide, the Evil can't hurt the body or the inside where we can just die. When can I just die? When can this end? When can I feel the pain again? I can't speak of the Evil with in. Hopeless is I

Empty is I, lost is darkness

know one will ever find me

I want you to feel my pain

I want to see your guts

spilling out

as u scream from the agnoy

as I watch u suffer like you deserve

to see u cry out

and know no one will help u

to see u in your misery. crying help me

but nobody comes.

I'm trapped
I can't find my way out
I'm trapped
so dark inside
there is a small light
in the crack of the door
I'm looking
down there is not much to see
a floor and man on top
I do not scream
I do not cry
just lying on that floor
I"m trapped.

 

I want to be alone
for no one will even know
no one will cry
no one will not shed a tear
alone am I
but Alone I  want to be
Traped in the dark
wanting to feel
feel the pain
as the blood drips
 down from my veins
Screaming
"WHY CANT I FEEL"
Screaming
"LET ME DIE"

           Alone in the dark, sitting, lying in my nightmare

Depressed is not the word Id say, for I'm not a cure that can be fixed. Let me just die I say alone is what I crave.

He took her innocents,
spilt her int peaces
She closes her eyes
Immagineing everything
Everything will be ok
But her inside Screams

Im not ok cant you see
Closing her eyes
wishing to just go away
To be lost and not found
Immagineing a place
of peace a place
where no one can hurt her.
The tears of blood is all
I can see. This is my rage
This is my heat
I am nothing
Cant you See

Imagining a place to be free
Oh please cant you see he is killing me
I scream but no one can here me
I scream in my agony
To be lost would be so sweet
I cant seem to do anything
I am trapped in  a world
That means nothing to me
Screaming cant you help me!



Rage is me
Rage is all I need
Rage you can't fight me

Rage you ruined me
Rage i'll be
You can't break me
Rage Il hurt
Rage Il bleed
Rage Il make you cry

To be consumed by money
To be lost in the world with nothing
where money is a must
where money leaves you
traped with out friends
you will see money means
every thing
where money distroys
and leaves you homeless
you will see no true friend
fake people within is what you see
to be consumed by money
with yelling words
and if you don't
you will be sorry
its all about
yourself
no other
you can try and do your best
you can try and make it right
but money consumes your life
no matter what
in this world
its all about greed
its all about our own needs
if you think you have friend
then dont bring money in
for once you do
you will see
money is every thing.
By Those Inside

Greed, all about me, and darkness
is this place of life
which means nothing to me
you will see
no true friend will there every be
once they see the darkness in me
once they see I have nothing but
blackness they will run from me
many will say I'm your friend
just wait and see
but in the end there is
only me
which if you look deep you will see
there is nothing for me
in this place of greed, all abouts me
and darkness all around
so tired of a place
where there is nothing for me.
By those Inside

 

This place

This place is not for me

Just cant seem to wait until death

takes me

oh the hope

of this agony

which consumes me

This place is not for me

to have the strength to kill me

oh what joy that will be bring

to die is what I seek

but to weak to kill me

to have the strength

oh what joy that will bring me

This world full of hate

and money make

to live in this place

is death anyways

so why not die

oh to just fucking die.......

those inside

 

 

 

 

 

killing myself,
taking matters to my own hands,
I dont wanna grow up
I hate change and
everything's just so rearranged

My life is nothing but a disaster
and time keeps going by faster
but in a second all that stuff
not going to matter
 imma gonna kill myself

I wanna die,ant that the truth
suicide keeps going through
my mind on a regular basis
Going crazy cause if you
Looking at me you will see
I sick in my eyes
cause im sck in my mind
been wishing to die
as long as I could remember
I dont complain just to whine
I dont cry just give
you a guilt trip
thats not my style
I just gonna kill myself
Cause I could careless
what you think
Its not about you
not trying
to get you to feel
bad for me
I rather dis every one
and make you mad at me
Yea its not about you
I'm gonna kill myself

people just dont understand
how much i hate this world
and all you people in it
this world of all about me
and what can you do for me
i'm gonna kill myself

I quit
 I'm bailing
I'm done
I finally give up
I'm sick of failing
and tired to live up
to what others want
thats right
i'm gonna kill myself